Lost in no mans land

sometimes in life such things really get me very puzzled. i have totally no idea y such things will happen and y i reacted in such a way. sometimes i feel that i am doing quite well and i praise myself but everytime i does that, right aft that, a lot of things will seem to change, change to state whereby i hate myself to core. i juz dunno y i did those things, if u ask me if theres any reason for it i seriously dunno, maybe there is but i seriously dunno wats the reason. anyone out there if u know plz enlighten me. there are really a lot of things i am trying to improve but sometimes it juz gets really tough and i seriously need that time to improve. to some, yes i may look successful i may look great in front of crowd but so wat? if u ask me if i am happy i seriously am not, and its not that i hate life but its juz that the things i do... is there a way for me to behave like how i behave normally when with my friends around even infront of crowd? is there a way? yes there is but i seriously have no idea how either, plz someone out there teach me. sometimes things are juz hard to explain and no matter how much i do, the improvement seems to be in the air, juz like atoms which i can even feel them. Who is closer to me? kays i have a blood related brother but we arent that close coz we seldom talk for the fact that we seldom see each other, but wats worse is we seldom fight. nvm bout that but if u ask me whos my best friend i have a lot. i dunno how they feel but the ppl i simply love them to the max and will happen forever are my 2 sisters, i have never mind of telling them anything, and seriously its everything and anything. so long as they are willing to hear, i don mind telling them all, every single thing. no1 can replace them in my heart. one of them is my jie name Grace Lim while the other is my mei name Toh Jia Min:D

tiredy freen all the biasy

tsk tsk tsk. hmm have been quite some time since i posted something huh, wasnt that hard to get back to school life but has been a tiring one for me.  wont ask for much, juz ask for some more time for my sleep.  think its kinda time i do smth bout that tho.  Previously during council meeting, i finally got the idea.  I have no confident that i can please every single one of u but i promise to really try my best.  i have my reasons for doing a lot of things, even the things that i know aft i do it u guys will hate me, i force myself into doing it also.  Sorry but i believe my reason is a very good one.  I juz wanna erm thank ALICIA!!! :D hahas.  playing so many roles around me that sometimes makes me confuse oso hahas.  Really u lighten my job a lot and i really appreciate that. but thats not the main point, the main point is that day in class, the words u told me really knocked me awake. thankyous lots.  promise to try my best kays :D 

Dead beat no beat

Haiz has been a really tiring holiday this june.  Things are all packed together and i dont even have space to breathe some fresh air.  Well but i guess its also time for me to cheerup and look at even the brighter side.  Right now trying to get all the holiday hw done, and i guess this is my first time trying to chiong finish all the hw within 2 days hahas.  Shall try ta prevent this in future.  Oh ya and anyway, would like to once again wish my dear sis A VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY.  A lot of things would have been a way big difference without you.  U made a big difference in my life, in a lot of others life too.  Hope all ur wishes comes true and anyw more things are coming up hahas.  Love you ttm sis. :) stay happy always

MY BIRTHDAY!!! ;D

heyo yo guys! wooohooooo today is my super duper birthday.  right but in a few mins time it marks the end of it alr, is alright, things that starts always ends.  Well, juz thankyous lots for the small party and celebration, thankyous everyone for all the well wishes be it thro sms, thro call, thro twitter or facebook or even thro face to face, thankyous guys lots to the max.  Also thankyou for all the present, u guys are the best :D Everything will be forever in my heart don worry :) thankyous

If only words can explain everything

It is really not easy to find a true and real direction and go with it for life, but sometimes juz out of a matter of rushing, we juz make do with any direction.  Sometimes its really easy to get lost in our life, but the thing that most of us would avoid is not to let someone say get lost to you.  Although thats only when u really get on someone nerves or u intrude too much, but thats the thing that most doesn't like to say or hear.  It is really alright to get lost in our life, because thats perfectly normal, but do most people really learn from their lost experience and get back on their feet and stand firm on their feet and never to get lost again.  It sounds easy but yet not easy, sound tough but yet not tough.  However, how many can actually do it?

OBS

yoyo sup to all! Back from OBS camp weeeeheeee, finally can be linked back to the world network again. Didnt post this immediately right after i come back from the OBS camp coz these few days am simply too tired and don have the time to do so.

K this is erm our group photo of our group, a part of team 2 echo which consist of both group Hillary and Nila Utama. I am from grp Utama. Our team members are:

• Azri
• Izdihar
• Mandy
• Jeslyn
• Farizuan
• Azman
• Marilyn
• Krisada
• Jocelyn
• Rebecca
• Syakila
• Syahfurah
• Ren Yi
• Cuiting
• Jia Hui
• Nazri

Finally last but not least Zhi Wei our trainer. Seriously this is one of the longest camp i have been to and yet it is the toughest but most enjoyable and memorable. Indeed i dont think anyone who went for this camp will sort of forget this camp at all, like wat the banner said at the jetty back at pulau ubin camp 2, "Theres something about OBS that stays with you for life". Much as indeed am concern, its totally true. For the 2e1'09 students, u guys should know the feeling of it when Mr Teo left PHSS, thats the feeling you get when we seperate from each other from the campsite. But really i have never regretted going to OBS despite its toughness and everything. It is all those bits and pieces that our team shared together that brought us all together. 2 students from each sch, no i should be saying 2 leaders from each sch and a total of 8 schs which means a total of 16 ppl coming together from diff backgrounds, diff schs forming a team together and got together, going thro thick and thin throughout the camp, doing things that we might not even get the chance to do with our closest friends forever juz like the land and sea expedition, smth that not everytime we will get a chance to do it. I mean is like so really very meaningful and helping each other to pull through all these is not smth that we can experience everyday.... But seriously this camp i would say its totally diff from a lot of camps becoz theres learning everywhere, learning when ur playing, learning when we are trekking, totally everywhere, kay maybe pang sai nv learn lor... Anywhere else oso have learning. And these learning points will really stay with us for life. Other details i guess i would save for those who went for this camp ya, for us to know hahas. There are more photos u guys can find them on fb but i lazy to upload ler hahas. So ya i bought quite a lot of stuff tho like a obs cap, obs key chain, 2 obs shirt and 1 obs shorts, wooohooo! And ya tho there are stilll a lot of things that i can say but then ya shall not go any further, and ya i sort of juz "renewed" my blog so ya rmb to tag ya ;D cya! And oya before i forget, thx to ALL NILA UTAMAIANS FOR EVERYTHING, LOVE YOU GUYS!

PHSS leadership camp 2010 by Trybe

WOW! juz came back from the leadership camp organised by the Trybe and i would say it is simply too awesome.  I didnt know that we could have such a fantastic camp in SCHOOL.   But really thx to the trybe team, but i think we will meet each other soon, juz now went to find Jeime (i think is liddat spell lah) and requested to join Trybe, look forward to working with all of u guys kay.  Learn really a lot from trybe team bout leadership and how to set up the camp fire.  Oso got the most dedicated camper award kay but i really didnt expect that.  I juz know that i have lost like 90% of my voice now becoz of all the cheerings ytd campfire night.  But i juz tot that it is really worth it lorh :) Mighty Ducky u guys are the best kays ;D  Kinda tired now i believe those who went for the camp knows all the details which i shall not go into that coz i am sorta tired now and i am oso lazy to say it all coz theres really tons which makes it like endless lolz.  I juz hope that all the leaders had fun ya.  So next coming camp is OBS camp , looking much forward to that weeeee! :D

Wee wee in sch

Wow now in sh with shandy waiting for xav,this itouch is so dam cool can,blogging using it now,nth much let!!bb

End oe^ exams

Woohoooo its finally the end of exams, end of part 1 misery.  Part 2 misery will be when we get back out results. Well nvm bout that, at least we don have to study and revise like crazy agn or have 4 whole periods of the same lesson in a day.  Well the exams... hmm papers some very difficult some still not that bad.  Bads hope no careless mistake,  phy hope i used the right formula? lolz.  Today went out with clique for a big big feast and to take the class tee. Seh boh now vary full leh... Haiz i tot gals are good at cooking, today they proved me wrong other than nic lolz.  Got some unglam photos tho, got time i will then post, for now, till then, bye then, cya peeps ;D

Naffa test

Wooo this weeks the naffa plus mye week. Oh well ytd was all the 5 elements while today is the 2.4 run.  lets take a look at the result

1. Shuttle run --> 10.53
2. Sit Ups --> 44
3. Standing broad jump --> 180
4. Sit and reach --> 49.5
5. Inclined pull up --> 28
6. 2.4 run --> 6th in position (timing dunno)

k lah overall soso but i failed that stupid standing broad jump, zzz.  Well done to all 3E1 students, was a great run at the 2.4.  Super well done to Sherry and Jerrick and Yao Kun, i guess all should know the reasons. k thats it really time is like running out, study and study is all that i care now coz MYE is here! K got to work supa hard alr, may only be able to post aft the MYE, till then peeps;D